Well today was somewhat decent. Got woke up at 6 this morning the kids were fighting and not wanting to go to school. I'm looking into getting J in anger management. He punched a hole in my living room wall when I told him he had to go. And after a long battle I finally got them ready and to school. Worked until 6. Got off and managed to immediately piss off M by telling her she was staying home tonight. Yes I know it's a Friday night but until her grade are up I'm not letting her go anywhere. Mr. P and I haven't had any arguments today but I still feel like there is a lot of stuff we aren't saying to each other that needs to be said but maybe In time we will. Now just to rest and see how this weekend goes. I'll talk to you guys tomorrow night.
Good night everyone ❤️
I don't even know where to start with today. It hasn't been as bad as the past two days if anything it was pretty normal. I worked from 9 to 6. Mr. P got off at 7 we didn't argue at all just cuddled and watched the good place. If you haven't seen it I highly recommend it. The kids didn't argue with each other or me today the just chilled in their rooms for the most part. I'm still waiting on my pay check from the last two weeks to get here hopefully it will be here soon so I can get their stuff for Easter but other than that I haven't stressed about anything all day. Maybe things are starting to look up. I hope you all have an amazing day tomorrow.
Good night everyone ❤️
today was better in some ways but worse in other, Mr. P and i spent most of the morning arguing and i literally wanted to do. i found out i can go back to work tomorrow yay! the relationship with M and B aren't any better I don't know how to get through to them. Their mother showed up today and thing got out of hand quickly i know its wrong to hate people but i highly dislike that bitch. i don't get choosing drugs over your children. Mr. P and i were able to work things out when he got off work we just need to start being more cautious of the others feelings. that's basically all i have to say for tonight. goodnight everyone!
March 31 2021
Today has been absolute hell. I got in trouble at work for my Internet being slow and can't go back until it's fixed. I'm still struggling with the pain of my miscarriage and my baby daddy for the sake of privacy we will call Mr.P is acting like it never happened and it's not like I ask for much just to be comforted but instead it's like I'm in this alone. My 2 family members that I've taken in because their mother is a terrible selfish person keep fight and lying to me about everything. We'll call them M and J. M thinks she doesn't have to listen to anything I say because “I'm not her mom” and J still needs serious anger management. These poor kids have just been through so much. I really want to help them but how can I do that when I can't get them to trust me? To top off my ultra crappy day I found out that they are still smoking behind my back and I feel like a total idiot for believing them. I'm honestly not even mad just disappointed but what can I do. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Until then, goodnight my everyone!